10/12/2015

It is in the way people act that they reveal themselves to be what they truly are. But it is in your own power to decide whether or not those actions have any power over you. I have discovered in my journey that people will say all sorts of things, but it is the actions they perform that shows you exactly what is most important on their mind.

Instead of focusing upon the negative things people tend to do, I have learned to take what good memories they have given and focus instead on new positive things you want for yourself. I guess all of this comes from time and time again, being disappointed in other people for what they chose to do. That and not being involved in their lives or being given a "feeling" of love or appreciation.

What this truly was in looking back at it, was me not giving myself the love and appreciation that I desired. I didn't take myself seriously or bothered to care about what I actually wanted. I've never allowed myself to be generous with my own self. I never allowed myself to be generous with my own time to me. And this is the quintessential lesson that I am learning to uphold. What do I actually want? What do I have to appreciate about myself now? What is stopping me from being happy right now?

It is questions like these that lead to my own road. These questions that lead to my own enlightenment. I often allow myself to daydream of better things and a better life for myself. I tend to enjoy it a bit much. It was part of how I escaped the mental cruelty of a past born of huge parenting errors and a most volatile situation. I do find however, that this same practice is the whole L.O.A. in practice and execution.

It allowed me to feel a sense of happiness and escape despite my own surroundings. It allowed me to feel good in my own world of my own choosing. It reminded me that the imagination is far more powerful if given fuel than anything going on in the material world in the present. The presence of what is, does not truly rule "what can be." A person's past does not dictate that same person's future. I will use this to my own advantage once again and be grateful for what is.

I will delve into that world of the imaginary worlds that were far more fun to explore. I will use every bit of this moment to enjoy what I want in my life. It isn't money that necessarily rule your happiness. It is happiness that ultimately rules the life of the person with money being an afterthought.