Love the taboo subject

I have lived quite some time on this planet. I have experienced quite a few things on the spiritual side. I've also seen quite a bit physically in my experiences. There is that one nagging subject that is the taboo in my life that so many others don't seem to get. The question of love always surfaces in one form or another. Society programs us to feel like we are not complete unless we are in a loving relationship of some sort. Ever since my adolescence, I was practically brain-washed into courting someone to love and marry for the sake of the sake of marriage. I never quite understood why is it that people feel the compulsion for another person in their lives to actually complete them.

No one can complete you except you. Other people can accompany you, but they don't complete what they inherently are not a part of. At the very least, this is my own opinion on the matter. I myself have only really been in three working relationships my whole life, so I guess I am most certainly not an expert on the subject of love. It isn't that I don't desire to have it, I guess it is one of those things I never fully understood. Like you are judged (quite strictly I might add), by society by the relationship you have. It is some form of measure to your overall success it seems to be married by X age. If you do not get married, then society judges you as a failure of some sort.

Like, if you can't get a companion of a sort, you are condemned by society for having some sort of imperfection. Maybe you are too fat, or you have high standards that can't be met, is usually something we deal with when we are single. Then you have holidays that rub it continuously in your face that you should "be with" someone on because for some reason it is taboo to be alone on oh, another day. I guess for me, life has taught me otherwise with harsh lessons and difficult circumstances.

I've had to learn how to be alone from an early age, because I never felt loved by my family. I never felt like I had a group of friends that really cared for me beyond what small comforts we could provide each other. I've always been alone for multiple reasons honestly. In my eyes, I guess society has taught me to rely on no one. and it had saddened me for a very long time. Then after the tears had fallen, it became what I was used to and then it became what I expected. At this point, I'm not saying it is impossible for me to settle down with someone, it just seems improbable by society's high standards.

Who knows though, maybe I'll end up with a boyfriend. Maybe someone will propose to me sooner than I think. All I know, is that I love me for who I am and I am my own best friend. Everyone else, isn't necessarily a guarantee in this journey that we call life.