I'm not going to lie, I'm going through quite a bit right now. I could use a friend in this moment. I'm anxious about how this life will turn out for me. Right now though, I have reached an all time low. I don't know what to do at this point. My life feels like it is in shambles. I have no job, my commissions have dried up, my boyfriend broke up with me, and I'm squatting at a friend's place.
June was a month of love and utter bliss. I felt empowered and even on top of my game. I reached into the vortex and things were turning around. I know now, that I have made some mistakes. I know now, that I have to dig deep and figure some things out. I just feel so lost and alone in this mess. At least I do know, that this isn't anything of what I want. So I guess the safest thing to do is to channel my emotions and my focus on what I actually want and just ignore the current reality.
This is a direct reflection to how my life started out 10 years ago. I was in another very similar situation. I felt very trapped and alone despite being surrounded by others. I was unemployed, and just dropped out of college. Everything felt awful and I sunk into a very deep depression. It took me quite some time to climb out of that depression.
Things are very different this time around though. I understand the Law of Attraction. I understand my emotions, my thoughts, and my focus can change the total outcome of my own life. I am not afraid of tomorrow anymore like I used to be. I am learning to master my thoughts beyond a situation, a person, or even a place. I know there is a turning point to this. I know that I will be just fine soon. How may not be important, but I know that what I want shall happen soon enough in one shape or another.
God help me.
-Q-
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