Saturday, May 14, 2016

During the chaos shift

I remember going through some very hard times growing up during the late 80's and early 90's. I was being raised by my sisters in the absence of my mother during those days. It was pretty rough being on welfare and sometimes not having the lights on or even food to eat unless I was at school. The other students never fully accepted me at all except a rare few. I remember that those years were so hard, that I labeled the 20th century "The Dark World".

But I also remember that during those very rough and unstable times, I had dreams to get away from the harshness of reality. I used to immerse myself into comic books and video games to bypass the time. When we had no power, I would pick up any pencil I could find, and steal paper from the copier room at school. I would draw to practice drawing and immerse myself into my very own comic book universe. It helped keep me sane to know that I was doing something positive during those dark and depressing times.

I would read this book "Learn to Draw the Marvel Way", every week I could get my hands on it from the school library. I begged my sisters to buy me a Muscle and Fitness magazine. I remember the first issue had Gary Styrdom on the cover. I would draw until I had no paper left. Keeping focused on my new found obsession with comic art.

So I bring back up this old memory to remind myself that I have faced darker times. I realize that I was allowing myself to feel better regardless of the world around me and ultimately, it brought me peace. So now that my world is once again shaken with some uncertainty, I am going to go at it again to create my peace regardless of the world around me. It is ultimately a choice in how I want to feel. No one can take away from you how you choose to feel.

I'm so glad to have lived such an adventurous life both good and bad with contrasts. It has given me everything I need to overcome anything that has stood in my way. God is real, and his grace is overwhelmingly great.

Q

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