The irony of this year

Here we are almost five months in the new year and now my life is finally stabilizing. It took a great deal of concentrated effort to get here but alas, I am here. I have been trying to keep myself a float for quite some time. I know I have not written here in quite some time. But this blog actually helps me clear my head in the knowledge that I got everything in my head out at the time and was able to vent in a more mature way.

In 2016, my friend had died. I had gotten a brand new job, I had moved back to Midtown, and everything was in a chaotic uproar. Challenge after challenge, obstacle after obstacle, I had managed to keep afloat. I am very grateful for where I am right now. Despite negative energy and people, I have carved out a positive space for myself. One in which no one else is allowed to affect me.

You do learn this after a while, in your own way, to create your own uninhabitable space. You get your mind completely away from everyone else. And in the moment that you finally do, (for some it takes decades into retirement to figure out), you become free. True freedom isn't necessarily a physical place at all. It is a state of being that is autonomous of the influence of others. Here we have what I have labeled "Year of FRIED CHICKEN". Because there is NO nutritional content in the nature of this year at all. Our government is rotted, our media is rotted and corrupt, and our businesses are being exposed for the corruption that lies underneath at all vantage points.

It all makes sense now as the world is changing, evolving in a sense to shed it's old skin of the rot that still attempts to stick on to it. In the job I was given, I had to learn in a very unfriendly environment. I was very stressed all the time. In some cases, to the point of losing my grip on reality. Since being there, I have been lied to, manipulated against, plotted on, and even disrespected. All of those people are either gone or about to feel the wave of Karma coming against them.

I am now on a journey that will end up taking me out west. It won't be long until I get there. I can feel it in my bones now. When one place feels like everything is fading and the other place has an open opportunity, I have learned to not fight it, but to relax and move with the current. Finally after so long, my stress is gone and I know can just live and feel free.