Something I wonder

I often wondered, why it would seem that I was always rejected from groups of people. I know for a fact that my age had little to do with that. I examine myself and my persona, and I see a person who is seeking truth above spreading lies. I see a man that is an explorer with a large heart that loves to help others. I see myself having a simple set of morals of treat others how I want to be treated.

But at the same time, I also see how I speak about what I see in others and ponder that because I speak about what I see, that is the reason why I get rejected. I do not go out of my way to shame people. I see it as a way for them to let go and confront themselves as to what is holding themselves back.  But as you know, and as I know, many people do not like the reality of who they actually are.

It is because I see who people actually are underneath the small talk that I often run into this sort of issue. People who are not comfortable with who they actually are, tend to run in terror from me. I don't actually consciously "do" anything to them. It is spiritually, where they feel affected and judged in a sort of way. I don't try to devalue people for what they have done, seeing as I myself have sinned on a constant basis. But I own everything about myself, from the good things to even the bad mistakes that I have made.

I guess most people are just not prepared to do that sort of thing. Most people are unprepared with dealing with the weight of what they do and how it affects others. I have watched it affect people to such a point, that they will hold a feeling of "distrust" or "disdain" for me even in a dire situation where it is not beneficial. Being "right" is not always being beneficial to what may be needed. It only proves that some people only desire what they desire, no matter how right or wrong it may be altogether.