Eclipse

Throughout my spiritual journey, I have given far too much to people. I have used my abilities to help people even far past the point of exhaustion. This only lead to me being back stabbed by my own friends on more than one occasion. I've used my money to help folks only to be forgotten when I was in pain or humbled. I've attempted to bridge gaps for the most sinister and the most destitute, and what did that teach me? It taught me that people are fickle and I should actually only love myself from this point on.

I was born to love and have been burned more times than turkeys on Thanksgiving. I have helped people who were looking for help and only received little to no recognition. My own family branded me a heretic, abomination, witch, and monster. But what no one truly understands or are willing to admit, is they are the very cause of what creates a monster in the first place. God himself, loves far more than most humans can even comprehend. Those who are connected to him are often the most isolated people in existence regardless of origin.

You learn that being connected to God and the Universe has a heavy cost. You learn that people don't want the truth and yet they have to bear it in order to improve. You learn that not every "I love you" is genuine. You learn how unimportant you are once people get what they want. Oh they love you while they cry and whine and are going through it. They pray to God when they want help. They listen to angels when their lights are cut off, but are happy and quick to ignore those same angels once they get a paycheck.

Humanity is a spoiled child that needs to be taught a lesson on a constant basis. I see this now. I've been too generous with humanity and I'm changing that as of now. I'm using my abilities in reverse now. No more blessings, let there be curses. No more advice, let there be ignorance. No more help, let there be pain. You use me for your entertainment and yet don't even consider me? Since you don't respect my presence, let's see how long you last in my absence.