What I truly want

I am a cosmic being having a mortal experience in this stage of time. Far away from my first incarnation, I am lost within past desires made manifest in a new world. I am watching my friends age fast in front of me, and their lives play out faster than I can even recollect. I want to hold on to them, but I cannot hold them long. Like water dripping through my hands, their lives are no longer my responsibility. I am asked so often, what it is that I want. That answer is so simple and plain.

I want to love and to be in love. I want to have the wet kisses and the foolish mistakes. I want to have the fun debates and the loyalty despite the world. I'm not worried of the world itself, I've seen so many versions of it pass. I am still here and yet the world is looking at me like the first time we met. I love you, and I know you, and yet I am still mystified at how I am here this time. I want the power of love in my existence. The toxic madness of it, the purified sanctity of it, I want it all. I want to feel again and know what life truly is.

I want to love, is that hard to ask? I want to be granted what so many humans have taken for granted. Most of these fools want power or wealth, until the death bed teaches them their mistakes. So many want what they think makes them happy, until they realize that love, is what they truly want. It is more than success and dreams. It is more than death itself, love is something that transcends all. It is beyond logic, and is a force of nature.

In each lifetime, there has been some version of it. In my own, I have seen this force but a few times. I feel lost and left behind. I want to feel you again and never let go. Come back to me oh love and never miss me again. Let us talk until sunrise, or until the world itself finally dies.

Q