Esoteric journey

I am a spiritual advisor and yet I am also on a spiritual journey. I have attained a lot of wisdom through experience and knowledge, and yet I am still a student in the realm of the unknown. We each journey through a process of finding ourselves and becoming what we truly are. It isn't a one definition type of thing, since as people we are ourselves flawed. Being who you are is a daily process of realization, recognition, and acceptance. After this is achieved, you shall find growth.

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Winding path

I will keep drawing. It makes me happy to do so. I will keep drawing, it makes me feel amazing in my spirit. Many people do not have a passion in their lives. It is that passion that will guide you into who you truly are meant to be. It isn't the people that were in your life but the person inside of you that guides you to who you truly are. Your true nature shall always reveal your true passion. It is that passion that you should follow.

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Swagg

Sea Goddess
Album: Opulence

Cycles and all that stuff.

I seem to have this problem with money. I get it and then people "magically" want to appear to try to force me to spend it. I separate myself from these people and then it turns into "drama". But no one wants to admit they need to cough up cash. Everyone wants you to spend money on them. Me personally? I'll just drop everyone and save the cash I have to add up to what I desire. I am tired of needy people who won't do for themselves. I am tired of this needy system that corporate America forces you to depend on. And I am truly tired of this socio-economic programming that the entirety of America is feeding itself.

Current mood: DONE with people

A recurring situation.

In life, there seems to be some sort of lesson that I need to learn recently. Years ago, a good friend of mine became involved with someone that was not good for him in the least. On the spiritual tip, she was just all around bad juju and I could sense it. She manipulated him and a small circle of our mutual friends and wreaked havoc on so many lives. This went on for like 6 years before he finally "woke up" and saw the chaos around him. He finally learned what he needed to and let her go.

The funny thing is, he immediately found the perfect person for him right after that happened. I could sense how wonderful this person truly is and how his life totally changed for the better. It was something out of a fairy tale to be honest. But I understand on a spiritual stand point, that there are lessons each of us must learn. I guess my lesson in the midst of all of that is, no matter how much you may love someone, you have to let them make their own mistakes.

Now another friend of mine who had witnessed the 6 years of chaos is now in a very similar situation. One by one, his friends are leaving him because of the shenanigans his current love interest is doing. She is controlling his life to a point that she dictates everything he does in his spare time. I began to see the decay when she wouldn't even let him attend my birthday celebration. Yeah that was pretty petty on her part. She actually changed her work schedule to make sure he couldn't go.

I find that dealing with a sociopath is exhausting for the people involved and the people who are on the sidelines. I wanted so badly to help the victims of these situations, but once again I must "stand down". What I'm wondering is why do I have to keep watching bad things happen to good people? Why do I have to endure this level of chaos for people to realize that what was said in the beginning was the entirety of the truth? I guess in his own way, the Father is preparing me to better learn how to deal with them from seeing the examples. I don't know, such is life.


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Daily wisdom

When a man allows himself to be conquered by fear, then he is but a man. But when a man overcomes all fear and believes in something higher than himself, he becomes the start of a movement. History was never made by anyone following the rules.

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Here kitty kitty! Sketch of the day!

Reaching new heights.

I have moved in to Midtown Atlanta during April of this year and my life has dramatically changed. I have met people who are about movement and change and purpose here. What bothers me though is that I feel like I haven't done enough to make the necessary change to truly be financially stable. But I have decided that I want a new life, a new purpose built around my own happiness. A life where no one holds dominion over my happiness or even my freedom.

I have met a few good friends that are fast becoming like a new family to me. I can actually connect with these people on a spiritual level as well as intellectually. It feels good to know that finally all of my dreams are coming to fruition. Finally there is a sense of purpose in my life again. And now the day after my birthday, I am feeling a new hope for being successful and loved. What is my goal you ask? Well, simply I wish to become... no scratch that, I WILL become an artistic celebrity who is also a spiritual counselor and advisor to many people of all walks of life.

The first step in doing this was for me to move out of Sandy Springs. That step is finally done. I just need to find another income so I may leave that retail environment and be productive once again. I know that what I desire will come to me. I just need to focus now on exactly what I am willing to do to attain it.

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There are times when I just want to get away from everything. It isn't me running away from responsibility. It is just me wanting to stop experiencing the normal rut of everyday. Life gets you into these "patterns" that unless you break them, become habit. I'm still trying to find the right set of "habits" for myself.  As far as a get away is concerned, I guess I'll have to settle on my imagination for now.

Alone in the woods

Sketching head shots to keep up my skills. I need to work on more faces I see.

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This moment in the journey

I don't really see myself as some sort of "idol". I think it's more that I just choose to be myself regardless of what oppressing society mongers think. 
I have lived the first 16 years of my life trying to please my family and keep up images that society placed upon me. It was in that 16th year that something happened to me mentally. I felt out of sync with what I was taught and decided to go with what I felt. I used my feelings to guide me towards what I truly wanted to do and who I truly wanted to be.

Your feelings will always be a ground guide to the true you. You are taught to mask them, hide them and even falsify them to protect yourself. I promised myself that I would never again not be true to my feelings. Let me tell you, it's been one hell of a roller coaster of a life. If you follow your feelings you will definitely know where to go. The only feeling you should learn to overcome is fear. You can let fear hinder you or how you truly feel or you can learn to overcome it.

In the end, I truly believe what you feel is a good guide book to knowing who you truly are. You would be surprised at how many people spend their entire life not knowing who they are at all. But I can't blame them. Look at the school system in America. You are taught from childhood to follow orders and to never question "structure". But one thing the school system with all of its systematic lies can't teach you is how to "be" you. 

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You are what you believe to be. You are only confined by what you choose to believe in and another person only has power over you that you chose to give them.

-Opulence-

"Senka - Alpha of the wolf pack"

Old picture collaboration
Pencils by -Q-
Colors by the talented Tyree Morrow

I need to talk about this. If you really care about someone you have hurt or wronged, then be an adult and actually apologize. An apology is a sincere and honest acknowledgement of empathy and growth in character. If you wish to apologize to someone, you should just accept it for what it is. Anyone willing to add drama and mind games to the mix.... example: I'm sorry I hurt you but,....Nope sorry was enough. Once you say BUT, you have nullified your apology. THIS is not being an adult. THAT is not taking responsibility. It is a justification to explain arrogance and selfishness. Something I simply do not respect at all. If you can't take responsibility and admit that you are wrong, then you are nothing more but an arrogant child that only deserves the respect a child gets. So please do not be surprised if I'm not talking to you. You deserved every bit of it. I don't acknowledge over grown children.

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