The year of the trainwreck 2016

This has been a scary and random year. So far, I have landed employment and it is alright. ((No complaints after a year off)) One of my best friends died in an accident at the beginning of this month. I've had to endure the tears of his loss. I've had to tell his wife so many things she never knew about him. I had to let myself just feel for once in my life again. This man came into my life and made a huge change to it. He helped me when a lot of other people would ignore me and look the other way.

What really pains me, is that so many people that knew how close we were as friends, didn't even bother to show up to his funeral. But his funeral was a beautiful event nonetheless and I'm glad that he was shown a lot of love there. Our lives were so shockingly similar in so many ways it is scary. But now, I'm the only one who is still here.

A part of me feels so lonely now that he's gone. He guided me through my first spiritual awakening. He helped me learn how to drive a stick, he helped me purchase my first car, he helped me learn even better self defense. This man was a brother to me in all sense of the word. He showed me God is real in so many ways. Now he's gone from my life until the next time we meet elsewhere.

I would be lying if I said that I am over it. You never really simply "get over" someone close dying to you. But I realize now, I have to be my own strength from here on out. I love you Lamar Jones Jr. Till we meet again.

Q

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