Drifting

I have reached a point in my life that I have found myself drifting in an abyss of thoughts. I wake up thankful for the life I was allowed to live, knowing that it can only get better from here. I am an artist that wants to be well paid and respected for what he does. But truth be told, I realize now it isn't about what others actually think.

Well to be honest, it isn't about focusing on impressing anyone else. That was a mistake I have made for a long time in my lifetime. I always wanted some sort of nod of approval or at least acknowledgement for the things I had done. But somewhere within adolescence I realized that such approval was just not going to show up. I had to impress myself with what I was learning and doing. But that is the coup de grace of the whole thing. I am my own worst critic and yet I was trying to be impressed by what I am working towards.

It is always like that for most artists. We always criticize ourselves with not being good enough to make an impression. We always submit ourselves to the cracking whip of some invisible autonomy that actually lives within ourselves. That is why most artists cheapen themselves to make a quick dollar when their work is worth just so much more. Self respect and dignity pouring down a drain of empty approval and empty promises never to be fulfilled until we either wake up from the nightmare of disbelief or until we "make it" within our own eyes.

But here I am, drifting within thoughts. It has always been in my nature to want to attempt to solve things. I want to be successful. I want to be well known. I want to be loved. I want to travel and explore more of the world at large. The difference now for me, is now I don't focus on "how" to do anything. The Law of Attraction actually exists and now I am using it to attain what I completely desire.

I am now changing frequencies of thought to finally escape a negative past with low vibrations and enter the wavelength of my actual desires. The only thing now to do, is to enter into the frequency to attain what I want faster. So now I am testing which is more true, vibrational frequency or actual skill of the pencil. Let's see which one happens first shall we?

Q

Hidden on Wundagore Mountain

I've reached a point in my life where I can finally breathe. I have left behind me so many things that have troubled me. This time around, everything is just getting better and better. Hope is the mightiest inspiration next to love and my life is filled with so much hope right now. Why am I hiding from the world? Well, to be honest, I have to repair myself after all the damage I had endured. I now stand in much better conditions and I am now applying the "law of attraction" to gather my desires.

When I fully studied what the law of attraction was, it made perfect sense as to what was going on in my life. Why I continued to endure conditions that I didn't want. The truest answer was that I brought them upon myself. I do not shed blame on anyone else. I brought those people within my life. I brought all of those actions upon my life. Now that I know how to focus, I have turned the ship around. Now that I am no longer concerned as to "how", I am now lifting myself out of despair.

This year has already proven to be beautiful and fulfilling for so many. I no longer "wonder" what is going to happen with fear and sadness. I am now embracing the gentle flow of the stream from which I came from. There is no damage to fear. There is no obstacle to worry about. There is no opposition to conquer. All of this is to be solved within my own mind.