Happy Halloween!

Happy Halloween!

Loving me again.

It isn't until I learned to love who I was, that I actually found peace. Strip away all of the ego and the drama and the fake people, and there I was laying underneath other people's needs. Afraid, lost, and even a bit ashamed, I have come to accept who I actually am. This is a new movement that I am enjoying. I enjoy the self. I enjoy my own company. I enjoy my own time. I enjoy everything I have to offer in this state of mind right this minute.

There is so much to be grateful for in this lifetime. I'm really thankful to all my readers who have supported me. I am really thankful for all the love I have received and all the people who help make my journey possible. Thank you all indeed.

10/25/15

It looks like things are on the up and up after all. I may even end up actually moving out to Los Angeles pretty soon. I'm not going to lie, I'm very stoked about it. I wanted to see L.A. for a long time. I know I always end up getting what I want in the scope of things, so now, I'm happy this agency may be providing a way. This is good news for me since I have been wanting to leave Atlanta for a while now.

I've done a lot here. I've moved here as a teenager, graduated school, and even went to college here. The rest feels like it has been a hazy dream. A downward spiral of family, past friends, and even darker relationships that led me to a spiritual awakening. I am truly honored and blessed that things went upward from where I came from. I spent a long time working in a retail store and from there I learned a great many things.

The first major thing that hit me, was this overwhelming sadness. I was content for what I had, but I always had this feeling like I could do so much more with my life. Slowly but surely, I sought out inspiration for what to do with my life. I had once again ignored drawing, and it came back to haunt me ferociously. Every time I tried to ignore being an artist, my mind would feel "lost". Thanks to a few good friends, I was able to free myself of that environment and allow myself to explore what I am supposed to actually be.

I've since left retail as of one year ago today. I managed a room for rent in a house in Midtown for a while too. I do miss that place though. As of now, I'm in Buckhead with some friends. I know I'll have my own place again soon and I am so ready for it to happen. I know that I will have everything I desire, and now I am letting it all happen.

10/14/2015

None of the world's troubles have meaning, until you give it the power to. None of the people in the world will have meaning, until you give them power to. Your focus is the pivotal point of where power belongs. That is the essence to the secret of life itself. If you feel you have no power, then know that you are "giving" it to someone else that you focus on. If you focus on you, then your power belongs to you.

I watch the world as so many people will be given "clues" as to how to get out of their situations, and yet they will strive ever the more to fight against time. They will wrestle with obstacles the world over before confronting the one thing that can actually block their own happiness, their ego.

10/12/2015

It is in the way people act that they reveal themselves to be what they truly are. But it is in your own power to decide whether or not those actions have any power over you. I have discovered in my journey that people will say all sorts of things, but it is the actions they perform that shows you exactly what is most important on their mind.

Instead of focusing upon the negative things people tend to do, I have learned to take what good memories they have given and focus instead on new positive things you want for yourself. I guess all of this comes from time and time again, being disappointed in other people for what they chose to do. That and not being involved in their lives or being given a "feeling" of love or appreciation.

What this truly was in looking back at it, was me not giving myself the love and appreciation that I desired. I didn't take myself seriously or bothered to care about what I actually wanted. I've never allowed myself to be generous with my own self. I never allowed myself to be generous with my own time to me. And this is the quintessential lesson that I am learning to uphold. What do I actually want? What do I have to appreciate about myself now? What is stopping me from being happy right now?

It is questions like these that lead to my own road. These questions that lead to my own enlightenment. I often allow myself to daydream of better things and a better life for myself. I tend to enjoy it a bit much. It was part of how I escaped the mental cruelty of a past born of huge parenting errors and a most volatile situation. I do find however, that this same practice is the whole L.O.A. in practice and execution.

It allowed me to feel a sense of happiness and escape despite my own surroundings. It allowed me to feel good in my own world of my own choosing. It reminded me that the imagination is far more powerful if given fuel than anything going on in the material world in the present. The presence of what is, does not truly rule "what can be." A person's past does not dictate that same person's future. I will use this to my own advantage once again and be grateful for what is.

I will delve into that world of the imaginary worlds that were far more fun to explore. I will use every bit of this moment to enjoy what I want in my life. It isn't money that necessarily rule your happiness. It is happiness that ultimately rules the life of the person with money being an afterthought.

the masks people wear.

I often wonder why  it is that people will go out of their way to hide who they truly are. Upon further and closer inspection, anyone can spot a fake a mile away. I've seen people go so far as to recreate their entire image into something completely false just to make themselves feel some sort of value towards an ego that is obviously dominant. The real personality will always emerge no matter how hard you attempt to hide it. Why bother hiding?


It is the same with so many people who will hate on the LGBT community and then in turn are caught in risky behavior. Senators that vote on bills against who they truly are, always end up caught. What's worse, is that these same senators and politicians build themselves on a river of lies and always get found out in the end anyways. So my question I have with the world at large is, why bother lying? You don't have to lie about who you really are. You don't have to go out of your way to impress anyone because you don't love who you really are.


This lack of self appreciation is dangerous to behold. I don't know the exact origin of the mask people wear, but the need for validation from an outside source is quite appalling. It would seem there is a need for some people to just feel appreciated by others for some sort of sense of worth. The funny thing is, if you don't value yourself, then other people will follow suit and not value you either. The lies I've seen people say just to cover up their authentic selves.

There is the real meat and potatoes as to what I'm saying. A person who is truly in touch with their true authentic self is a dangerous thing to behold in a world of falseness. I look at myself as imperfect and yet loving at the same time. I look to myself for my own value and appreciation. Why? Because, I have learned to love my mistakes. I have learned to open up and accept that I have flaws. I have learned that the very things I was shunning were parts of me that in all reality, should be embraced.


If I can love my imperfect ways enough, there would always be something to appreciate. If you can appreciate things a bit more, then everything else will fall into place anyays.

Just food for thought.

10/6/2015

I am enjoying this process of creation. I enjoy the people that are in my life as all threats have went away. I love coming home to a beautiful place filled with everything that delights me. I enjoy the flow of money and success that are mine to have. I love how fast things are working for me. I allow myself joy, love, and success. You have to enjoy what truly is in your mind before it can become reality.

I am quickly seeing things unfold even in the comfort of a place of survival. I am a wealthy business owner and lover of arts and antiquity. I enjoy luxury on a scale that was never known before. I invite the energy of luxury within my life. I invite the energy of love within my life. All things are working just fine right now for me. I give daily gratitude to my existence and to the wonderful things that keep coming to me.

Life isn't about searching for blessings. It is about counting the ones you already have. And, in time, you will begin to see far more things to give thanks for.

10/04/2015

I will not save a person that refuses to try to save themselves from their own self created problems. I will no longer care for those who attempt to blame others for their own manifestations of foolishness. I am seeing this transformation of self and I am relishing in it. One by one, everything and everyone that isn't on the path any longer is being removed. There is only the frequency of what I am and the frequencies of what I am not now.

I can tell from how people are behaving, that I am leaving all of this stagnant drama behind. I am happy indeed that I no longer am attracting problematic people in my life. They are running away from my presence in droves and I am actually entertained. How does the saying go? When one door closes, another one opens. I am a person that went from being miserable working a full time job and being a part time artist to a person that is finding himself again in a myriad of possibilities.

I used to peer endlessly at the desk at that past job, wondering where my life was headed. I thought of the many misleading things society tries to place within your mind that things don't work out unless  you are working full time. But now thanks to Law of Attraction, I can see that this simply isn't the case at all. Whatever you focus on grows. So when I stopped focusing on what I didn't like about my past and focused on the gratitude of the present.

The only true purpose in any person's life is joy. The form of that joy is different for each person, but since I chose to follow joy, my life has always had this abundance of freedom. For all of this, I am eternally grateful.


-the Wavelength-

10/3/2015

I love the energy of positive thinking. I enjoy the people that I am surrounded by and the love that I have for my own self. I have accomplished a great deal of things in such a short lifetime. I really do not give myself enough love or enough credit. I shall change that today and hereafter. I love you so much you silly intellectual. You have survived a great amount of things in your life, and it has made you a much brighter and much more benevolent person.

You have come from a magical island full of poverty and dreams and survived many ordeals to your own person and your family. You have pushed past abuse and found peace despite so many conflicts. You are a lovable man with wonderful attributes that people adore. So stop being so hard on yourself. Look at how far you've come.

Cosmic