Cycles and all that stuff.

I seem to have this problem with money. I get it and then people "magically" want to appear to try to force me to spend it. I separate myself from these people and then it turns into "drama". But no one wants to admit they need to cough up cash. Everyone wants you to spend money on them. Me personally? I'll just drop everyone and save the cash I have to add up to what I desire. I am tired of needy people who won't do for themselves. I am tired of this needy system that corporate America forces you to depend on. And I am truly tired of this socio-economic programming that the entirety of America is feeding itself.

Current mood: DONE with people

A recurring situation.

In life, there seems to be some sort of lesson that I need to learn recently. Years ago, a good friend of mine became involved with someone that was not good for him in the least. On the spiritual tip, she was just all around bad juju and I could sense it. She manipulated him and a small circle of our mutual friends and wreaked havoc on so many lives. This went on for like 6 years before he finally "woke up" and saw the chaos around him. He finally learned what he needed to and let her go.

The funny thing is, he immediately found the perfect person for him right after that happened. I could sense how wonderful this person truly is and how his life totally changed for the better. It was something out of a fairy tale to be honest. But I understand on a spiritual stand point, that there are lessons each of us must learn. I guess my lesson in the midst of all of that is, no matter how much you may love someone, you have to let them make their own mistakes.

Now another friend of mine who had witnessed the 6 years of chaos is now in a very similar situation. One by one, his friends are leaving him because of the shenanigans his current love interest is doing. She is controlling his life to a point that she dictates everything he does in his spare time. I began to see the decay when she wouldn't even let him attend my birthday celebration. Yeah that was pretty petty on her part. She actually changed her work schedule to make sure he couldn't go.

I find that dealing with a sociopath is exhausting for the people involved and the people who are on the sidelines. I wanted so badly to help the victims of these situations, but once again I must "stand down". What I'm wondering is why do I have to keep watching bad things happen to good people? Why do I have to endure this level of chaos for people to realize that what was said in the beginning was the entirety of the truth? I guess in his own way, the Father is preparing me to better learn how to deal with them from seeing the examples. I don't know, such is life.


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Daily wisdom

When a man allows himself to be conquered by fear, then he is but a man. But when a man overcomes all fear and believes in something higher than himself, he becomes the start of a movement. History was never made by anyone following the rules.

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Here kitty kitty! Sketch of the day!

Reaching new heights.

I have moved in to Midtown Atlanta during April of this year and my life has dramatically changed. I have met people who are about movement and change and purpose here. What bothers me though is that I feel like I haven't done enough to make the necessary change to truly be financially stable. But I have decided that I want a new life, a new purpose built around my own happiness. A life where no one holds dominion over my happiness or even my freedom.

I have met a few good friends that are fast becoming like a new family to me. I can actually connect with these people on a spiritual level as well as intellectually. It feels good to know that finally all of my dreams are coming to fruition. Finally there is a sense of purpose in my life again. And now the day after my birthday, I am feeling a new hope for being successful and loved. What is my goal you ask? Well, simply I wish to become... no scratch that, I WILL become an artistic celebrity who is also a spiritual counselor and advisor to many people of all walks of life.

The first step in doing this was for me to move out of Sandy Springs. That step is finally done. I just need to find another income so I may leave that retail environment and be productive once again. I know that what I desire will come to me. I just need to focus now on exactly what I am willing to do to attain it.

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