Love is a wonderful thing. Underneath all of the labels and all of the glamour, there really is only the way it makes you feel. It is something that makes you forget the world was ever bad. A force that draws you closer and pulls you in to enjoy what truly is. Your entire reason for living all wrapped up on one feeling of bliss, happiness, and euphoria, that is the truth in nature of love.
It has nothing to do with pain or with strife as so many others are trying to sing about. That is the absence of love. That is what they want you to believe over all that love is some horrible happen chance or some abusive lie. But those who really understand it, will tell you that there is no other addiction like it. Something deeper than any addiction, that brings you to the fullness of who you really are. That is why love heals so well. Nothing else truly holds any point to be honest.
It isn't in our truest nature to hate or be violent. Underneath it all, every person or being is programmed to love. Everything else leads you to nowhere. It begins by loving you and letting that flow of energy in. You start to treat yourself so much better and pay yourself some fun compliments. You let yourself play like your childhood and begin to feel better about everything in general. You remember that life isn't all about those serious things people discuss far too much. You stop judging and you actually start feeling.
It then flows into your everyday feeling. As you feel better about who you are, you stop worrying about what others think. You remember how new the world feels and that it is something to be cherished. Every moment is a heartbeat away from being gone, but when you learn to actually cherish love, every one of those moments actually starts to count. Live your life with love at the forefront, and nothing else will harm you.
Pirates of Euphoria
Q
Tuesday, August 23, 2016
Monday, August 22, 2016
The next adventure
I have contemplated for quite some time moving west to California. It seems like this journey of mine is taking me to very interesting places. Maybe I will encounter people like myself to some degree there. Maybe I will be able to actually make great connections there. I have thought about this a great deal for the past few months. The reasoning behind is the fact that Atlanta has become a dull place for myself.
People in Atlanta (the ones I have met anyways), are for the most part two dimensional. There are promises made, but no true action taken. This is a sea of followers that await being led or manipulated. I'm not saying the whole populace is like this, I'm only recounting the people I have met thus far. Ah yes, the people of Atlanta. So many shining stars with talent that await for some executive to come and scoop them up like the days of old in Hollywood. Talking to any of the artists down here and you'll see an abundance of talent but a lacking in actual work ethic.
You will see many people who do not lead themselves and end up in the aftermath of a whole host of bad decisions. I have done many of my spiritual duties down here, and now it seems that my obligations here have reached their end. I ask myself everyday what exactly am I doing here now? I look at the mirror and ponder over this question a lot more often than I used to. I understand that in truth it isn't really the location that affects your destiny, but I can't help but see a constant outcome with Atlanta.
In Atlanta, people will make many promises to you and end up not delivering on any of those promises. They will tell you things that they want you to believe about them, but upon further inspection, you find they are entirely something else altogether. Everything here is whimsical and done halfway. There is an expectation almost, for someone else to fill the gap, or to make light of the lack of actual good planning on their part. Everyone does things here last minute and no one wants to accept true responsibility.
If a person makes an event, you can expect a good two parts of what is planned to not happen at all. The flyer will be glossed up with models who have nothing to do with the event at all, because the designer stole the images from the internet. They will speak of drink specials and a celebrity guest that may not even show up at all. And all of this, for you to spend money on overpriced valet parking and overpriced, watered down drinks. The only thing that the natives take seriously in the city of Atlanta, is their image. Down here, image is everything, but a lack of substance is rampant.
That "celebrity famous fitness trainer" is nothing more but an ex convict that cannot work a traditional job due to his criminal record. That gorgeous model that handed you a business card detailing her "illustrous contacts", is nothing more than a shampoo girl at a salon who works there only to get her hair done. The stories go on and on, but I digress. It is time to leave Atlanta Georgia. It is funny that the Masquerade club is finally getting torn down. Because that is exactly what this city is for the most part, one giant Masquerade ball.
Q
People in Atlanta (the ones I have met anyways), are for the most part two dimensional. There are promises made, but no true action taken. This is a sea of followers that await being led or manipulated. I'm not saying the whole populace is like this, I'm only recounting the people I have met thus far. Ah yes, the people of Atlanta. So many shining stars with talent that await for some executive to come and scoop them up like the days of old in Hollywood. Talking to any of the artists down here and you'll see an abundance of talent but a lacking in actual work ethic.
You will see many people who do not lead themselves and end up in the aftermath of a whole host of bad decisions. I have done many of my spiritual duties down here, and now it seems that my obligations here have reached their end. I ask myself everyday what exactly am I doing here now? I look at the mirror and ponder over this question a lot more often than I used to. I understand that in truth it isn't really the location that affects your destiny, but I can't help but see a constant outcome with Atlanta.
In Atlanta, people will make many promises to you and end up not delivering on any of those promises. They will tell you things that they want you to believe about them, but upon further inspection, you find they are entirely something else altogether. Everything here is whimsical and done halfway. There is an expectation almost, for someone else to fill the gap, or to make light of the lack of actual good planning on their part. Everyone does things here last minute and no one wants to accept true responsibility.
If a person makes an event, you can expect a good two parts of what is planned to not happen at all. The flyer will be glossed up with models who have nothing to do with the event at all, because the designer stole the images from the internet. They will speak of drink specials and a celebrity guest that may not even show up at all. And all of this, for you to spend money on overpriced valet parking and overpriced, watered down drinks. The only thing that the natives take seriously in the city of Atlanta, is their image. Down here, image is everything, but a lack of substance is rampant.
That "celebrity famous fitness trainer" is nothing more but an ex convict that cannot work a traditional job due to his criminal record. That gorgeous model that handed you a business card detailing her "illustrous contacts", is nothing more than a shampoo girl at a salon who works there only to get her hair done. The stories go on and on, but I digress. It is time to leave Atlanta Georgia. It is funny that the Masquerade club is finally getting torn down. Because that is exactly what this city is for the most part, one giant Masquerade ball.
Q
Wednesday, August 17, 2016
Love the taboo subject
I have lived quite some time on this planet. I have experienced quite a few things on the spiritual side. I've also seen quite a bit physically in my experiences. There is that one nagging subject that is the taboo in my life that so many others don't seem to get. The question of love always surfaces in one form or another. Society programs us to feel like we are not complete unless we are in a loving relationship of some sort. Ever since my adolescence, I was practically brain-washed into courting someone to love and marry for the sake of the sake of marriage. I never quite understood why is it that people feel the compulsion for another person in their lives to actually complete them.
No one can complete you except you. Other people can accompany you, but they don't complete what they inherently are not a part of. At the very least, this is my own opinion on the matter. I myself have only really been in three working relationships my whole life, so I guess I am most certainly not an expert on the subject of love. It isn't that I don't desire to have it, I guess it is one of those things I never fully understood. Like you are judged (quite strictly I might add), by society by the relationship you have. It is some form of measure to your overall success it seems to be married by X age. If you do not get married, then society judges you as a failure of some sort.
Like, if you can't get a companion of a sort, you are condemned by society for having some sort of imperfection. Maybe you are too fat, or you have high standards that can't be met, is usually something we deal with when we are single. Then you have holidays that rub it continuously in your face that you should "be with" someone on because for some reason it is taboo to be alone on oh, another day. I guess for me, life has taught me otherwise with harsh lessons and difficult circumstances.
I've had to learn how to be alone from an early age, because I never felt loved by my family. I never felt like I had a group of friends that really cared for me beyond what small comforts we could provide each other. I've always been alone for multiple reasons honestly. In my eyes, I guess society has taught me to rely on no one. and it had saddened me for a very long time. Then after the tears had fallen, it became what I was used to and then it became what I expected. At this point, I'm not saying it is impossible for me to settle down with someone, it just seems improbable by society's high standards.
Who knows though, maybe I'll end up with a boyfriend. Maybe someone will propose to me sooner than I think. All I know, is that I love me for who I am and I am my own best friend. Everyone else, isn't necessarily a guarantee in this journey that we call life.
No one can complete you except you. Other people can accompany you, but they don't complete what they inherently are not a part of. At the very least, this is my own opinion on the matter. I myself have only really been in three working relationships my whole life, so I guess I am most certainly not an expert on the subject of love. It isn't that I don't desire to have it, I guess it is one of those things I never fully understood. Like you are judged (quite strictly I might add), by society by the relationship you have. It is some form of measure to your overall success it seems to be married by X age. If you do not get married, then society judges you as a failure of some sort.
Like, if you can't get a companion of a sort, you are condemned by society for having some sort of imperfection. Maybe you are too fat, or you have high standards that can't be met, is usually something we deal with when we are single. Then you have holidays that rub it continuously in your face that you should "be with" someone on because for some reason it is taboo to be alone on oh, another day. I guess for me, life has taught me otherwise with harsh lessons and difficult circumstances.
I've had to learn how to be alone from an early age, because I never felt loved by my family. I never felt like I had a group of friends that really cared for me beyond what small comforts we could provide each other. I've always been alone for multiple reasons honestly. In my eyes, I guess society has taught me to rely on no one. and it had saddened me for a very long time. Then after the tears had fallen, it became what I was used to and then it became what I expected. At this point, I'm not saying it is impossible for me to settle down with someone, it just seems improbable by society's high standards.
Who knows though, maybe I'll end up with a boyfriend. Maybe someone will propose to me sooner than I think. All I know, is that I love me for who I am and I am my own best friend. Everyone else, isn't necessarily a guarantee in this journey that we call life.
Dragon Con
I approach the festival known as Dragon Con with so much eagerness. I totally enjoy making a costume and getting juiced up with my fellow nerds. Though on the spiritual tip, there is something strange about it all. You can feel the great amount of energy in the air. There are other supernaturals at the event.
Due to a high demand for a second version, I"ll be creating my valkyrie armor again this year. It feels really good to be able to do this without any form of restraint. I am truly blessed to have so many cosplay friends that help me out every time. In a sense, Dragon con gives me a sense of home. It feels like a home-coming event where we all can let our hair down and be who we actually are. There is no need to be hidden or hide yourself among the crowds. Everyone is similar to you in some way.
I hope to get things done well this year, I do know that I'll have more than enough money to make things work. So grateful it will be a bang.
Q
Due to a high demand for a second version, I"ll be creating my valkyrie armor again this year. It feels really good to be able to do this without any form of restraint. I am truly blessed to have so many cosplay friends that help me out every time. In a sense, Dragon con gives me a sense of home. It feels like a home-coming event where we all can let our hair down and be who we actually are. There is no need to be hidden or hide yourself among the crowds. Everyone is similar to you in some way.
I hope to get things done well this year, I do know that I'll have more than enough money to make things work. So grateful it will be a bang.
Q
Monday, August 8, 2016
Lost in chaos
2016 has been a very chaotic year. Widespread panic and manipulation have turned this time period into a moment of uncertainty. I have found that it is easier to simply focus on everything else but the outside world. focusing on the inner world adjusting it as peace descends upon me. I am not listening to the world any longer. I am learning to listen to myself. Fear is slowly subsiding as I realize how much I have already lived through. There are those three words again that help motivate me past all of the chaos and splendor; "life, moves, on."
Life moves on. It is both honest and cruel at the same time. But it is also quite comforting the more you actually think about it. Nothing can really harm you for long. No one has any actual power over you. No one can force you to do what you do not want to do. The odds are meaningless when you realize just how much power you actually have over how you want to feel.
Q
Life moves on. It is both honest and cruel at the same time. But it is also quite comforting the more you actually think about it. Nothing can really harm you for long. No one has any actual power over you. No one can force you to do what you do not want to do. The odds are meaningless when you realize just how much power you actually have over how you want to feel.
Q
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